خواب دیدم تهران بودم
من پشیمونم، من خیلی پشیمونم از همه ی اتفاق هایی که افتاد
از همه ی اتفاق هایی که دست من بود و افتاد
من از این که همه ی چیزایی که دست من بود اشتباه شد پشیمونم
من از جایی که ایستادم خوشحالم
من از این که امروز رو می بینم که اینجا بیام بگم من پشیمونم شاکی ام
ولی حالا بهتر از هیچ وقته
می بینی... همیشه یه کاری می کنه که بگی شکر
OMG i do not believe that it's already been one year!
"i wanna hang out with you..."
we discussed depressing stuff. i wrote up a study plan like we talked about. it's really tight. really really tight. God help us!
x me
ps khoda ya shokret.
ps2 i got a kanye west t-shirt! it's so cool!
ps3 thank you. thank you. words can't say it... thank you.
ps4 this thing between us is so much bigger than us. teach us how to handle it.
ps5 thank you for so many blessings. i can't even count. i can't even always see them. but you are beyond me. and this thing between us, is beyond me. thank you. thank you. thank you for that one person who's mine.
"it's yours, do whatever you want with it."
- really?
"of course."
of course you are mine.
I'm tired of running let's walk for a minute.
emrooz enghadr az khodam shaki hastam ke aslan hichi nagoo!
az oon rooza ke hamash allaaf booda, ke az tanbali e khodam azab vojdan dashtam, vali baz ham hich kari nakardam. az ooon rooza ke hamash neshestam be tamasha klardan... emrooz az oon roozayee bood ke vaghan ahmaghane gozasht.... az oon roozayee ke adam yadesh mire, az oon roozayee ke its not worth remembering.
i'm not gonna fail.
- do you mind me asking, why are you doing this?
: my wife wants me out of the house.
long way to go... tired, sleep-deprived. physically tired... my body aches...
they are talking about current affairs and there she is confessing how she doesn't know anything.... (think about it, she thought churchil was the first black american leader!!!).... she carries on explaining how she wanted to become a forensic scientist and now she is a full-time model. there's gotta be more to life than living.
thoughts:
i gotta get through this.
i will not let all the above bring me down.
i will not let the stress bring me down.
i will work hard.... and that's how it's gonna be for the rest of this year and years to come. that is what i have decided to do.
today: tired, black rings under my eyes, feel thin, .... yea. end of break.
waking up late
running here and there
catching up with friends
trying to study
getting involved in shit
feeling feverish
being feverish
falling asleep
feeling hungry
being hungry
waking up
feeling ill
getting on with it
getting on with it
lots of tv to make me feel better
end up wasting another day
end up feeling very ill
end up not sleeping all night
end up tossing and turning all night
managing to fall asleep at 8
having to wake up at 11
start work on 1
having to rock on
top sail on
complain
console
it'll be ok
it'll all be ok
thoughts: i'm not gonna get involved in people's shit ever again!!
today: happy else ill,
,
,
,
, worried, scared shit-less!
sleep eat watch watch watch and watch some more
eat
and it's time to go back to sleep
emrooz ye khabar e bad shenidam... ye khabari ke chand maahi bood mitarsidam beshnavam. mige az man ba marefat tar didi, migam na. khodesh ham khodesh ro be in ba marefati nadide! vali be inja ke mirese mehraboone, ba marefate.. va mard tarin mard e donyast.
daghighan vaghti fekr mikoni dige az in bad tar nemishe... life goes and surprises you...
khodaya... sabr bede. khodaya... tamumesh kon. base dige.
khodaash rahmat konaad.